all the writing insecurities

9:42 PM


Writing is a very complicated thing to talk about. During those rare occasions wherein people ask me about my own writing, it becomes really awkward for me. When I’m online I’m not any less incoherent. 

Since this post is sort of emotional and pries into my mind a lot, it’s going to be clumsy and totally unelegant, but I have to get this off my head. 

I’m a very insecure writer. Like: I used to shift from one genre to the other, one POV and tense style to another, because I felt like I wasn’t good enough. I wanted to try to be so hard like other writers. I’d check websites of authors and other writers and try adapting their plotting method, ways on titling and naming characters, the like. 

Last year I was in a severe writing limbo. I didn’t get any draft done, I barely pounded a few thousand words out. I don’t think I even hit 10,000 words in total.

But I guess that’s okay, and here are three huge insecurities I’ve had and how slowly, I’m still trying to get over. I say ‘still trying’ because every now end then these statements find their way into my head.


I know lots of writers who rock at one genre, or one theme, or are great at plotting and creating deep characters. I idolized — and I still idolize — them because they seemed so cool and put-together. But this had a tremendous effect on me in terms of my own writing, because instead of focusing on exploring my own style, I tried to latch on theirs. 

However: I’ve been writing seriously for only two years. I’m still discovering my own method, my own style. 


I’m really bipolar about this. One day I’m reminding myself that my stories are needed in the world, even though I don’t know it yet, and the next I’m glaring at my computer screen because wow, this author has an amazing new book coming out, how will I ever write something quite as good?

However: now I’m finding those ‘good days’, wherein I actually try to see the worth of my writing, all the while knowing that my stories are still rough, and with time they’ll get better.


Note to you and me: there is none, and there will never be a set mold on what a ‘real writer’ should look or act like. Even though the grand and majestic online world contains websites and articles with people discussing their own thoughts that writers should write better than they speak, drink coffee and alchohol 24/7, and must write a thousand words a day, it shouldn’t dictate the way you as a ‘writer’ should be. 

All I know is that words are coming out of me, I’m stringing the letters of the alphabet together, and I’m here.

In conclusion: to me, the world is built on subjectiveness. Every single person in the world has different opinions and beliefs, and so do people who pursue in different creative arts from writing to painting to photography to music. All we have is our own voice, and all we need to do is use it in our own way. It’s that simple and that hard.


- Andrea <3

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12 comments

  1. Wow. Just WOW. I REALLY needed to hear this. Did you somehow read my mind? Because these sort of thoughts are in my head so much. "All we have is our own voice, and all we need to do is use it in our own way." This. Is. Amazing.

    Thank you so much for this post.

    <3

    audrey caylin

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    1. Thank you so much Audrey <3 I'm really glad you liked this post, and it's great to know that there are other people in my situation, which makes me more eager to help people out by writing posts like this!

      - Andrea at A Surge of Thunder

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  2. Wow what an awesome post! I can SO relate, and I feel so inspired and encouraged after reading that :)
    Amazing post!

    New GFC follower :)

    Amy @ A Magical World Of Words

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    1. Thank you for your kind words!!! I'm looking forward to reading more from your blog (which I just checked out)

      - Andrea at A Surge of Thunder

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  3. Awesome post! *virtual hug* I've gone through so many of these doubts myself, and as a fairly new writer, still am. We just need to remember: "Only YOU can tell YOUR story." At the end of long writing periods, in the midst of writer's block, through the piles upon piles of editing notes, it's so important to remember it. Because the world deserves your story. <3

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    1. Thanks Melissa! And I 100% back up everything you have said.

      - Andrea at A Surge of Thunder

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  4. i can relate so much to this post! i'm thinking about this all the time, and i'm glad someone put it into words. i agree that telling your own story is both very simple and very hard (but very worth it) <3

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    1. Ahh yay I'm really happy you were able to relate to this, Madeline! Most forms of art I believe are always 'packaged' with self-doubt and reluctance.

      - Andrea at A Surge of Thunder

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  5. I use to struggle with having my own style, but I think I've found it! *grins in happy jubilation*
    -Gray Marie
    graymariewrites.blogspot.com

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    1. Oooh that's awesome Gray! Finding and being comfortable with your own writing style to me is really important.

      - Andrea at A Surge of Thunder

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  6. Ahh, I love this so much. I hate to admit it, but insecurities are my biggest struggle. Not even in writing -- in life as well. With... everything I do. XD It's so easy to look at what I've created, or what I said, or at my face, and think, "Ugh, everything I do is horrible," but I totally agree with what you said here. It's something I continually need to keep reminding myself of.

    Thanks for being real. <3

    katie grace
    a writer's faith

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    1. The feeling of hating my writing happens SO often that I've lost count already! I try to keep it at bay when it comes to everything else aside from writing but it still does seep in. I guess the thing is we all need to take our own writing positively. For sure my writing is horrible now, but with time it will get better.

      You're welcome and I am so ecstatic you enjoyed this post <3

      - Andrea at A Surge of Thunder

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